I wish that I didn't have to wake up tomorrow. I wish I could just go to sleep and never have to wake up again. I know it's a horrible thing to say, but it's true. I'm so far past being able to cope with this any more.

The depression went critical two weeks into the 'magical' 80mg morphine dose, along with full-on panic attacks. Then just to rub salt into the wound, I had a major pain episode.

So, no choice but to come off it - I can't live like that. I've already dropped two doses, but it just won't stop. The depression just won't leave me alone and the pain is rampant and I don't know what to do. It's just too hard.

Somebody, please help me.