Tuesday, 4 October 2011

Unbelievable pain

My only achievement today is not calling an ambulance, and not killing myself.

I suppose I should be proud - given the extraordinary pain levels, it's pretty bloody astonishing that I haven't done one or the other. And there's every possibility I still might.

The morphine limit has gone out the window. I should be upset about that, but the only alternative *would* have been suicide. Even with the hiked-up morphine, it still only meant I could breathe without extra pain; I still couldn't move or sit up or do anything.

And there's no sign of any improvement. I don't know if I can make it through a night of this as well.

Posted from Blogium for iPhone

No comments:

Post a Comment